Hopeful

Hopeful

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It’s a little late. I hear Jimmy Kimmel orating his evening monologue from the living room and—though I’m in another room—I know Polo and JD are laying on the sofa. I’m editing last Saturday’s wedding and as the night creeps forward, I can’t sleep.

In a few hours, my mother will be having surgery and staying in the hospital for a couple days. Later today, we’ll find out whether the lump in my mom’s throat is cancerous. And though I feel worried, I’m also faithful. I believe everything will be okay. And I believe this for no other reason than I must or else my hope slowly chips away.

I’ll be spending most of the day at the hospital with my family, but I’ll update as soon as I have details. For those of you who’ve written and spread a little support and love, thank you. Trying to balance work, life, and hope is difficult, but I appreciate your time and outpouring of kindness. It makes me feel so warm and fuzzy! 😉

**EDITED TO ADD**
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I spent most of the day with my mother and though she was unresponsive, the nurses promised she was doing well. I spoke with my mom this morning and she seems in happy spirits, so that’s awesome! We find out the results from the surgery on Monday, but I just wanted to express how thankful I am for making me feel less alone. Seriously, thank you.

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  1. Alicia Brown -

    Many warm-fuzzy thoughts and prayers to you and yours…

      10.28.08 - 7:41 am

  2. Katie [shadowplay] -

    Aww… Thinking of you 🙂

      10.28.08 - 7:48 am

  3. Nancy Ramos -

    I know the feeling from personal experience. My prayers to you and your mother.

      10.28.08 - 7:54 am

  4. denise karis -

    They say that faith is the best thing in a time like this. So much love from all of us will be going out to you and your family and your mother especially –

      10.28.08 - 7:58 am

  5. Funke O -

    With faith anything is possible……. Ur mom is a fighter and she’ll come through this just like she did before…. so relax knowing our father never sleeps….

      10.28.08 - 8:18 am

  6. nattnee -

    i hope your mum will be ok and all this shall be in the past very soon….take care

      10.28.08 - 8:58 am

  7. Glenda -

    ((Hugs)) and prayers for you and Mama! Ü

      10.28.08 - 9:01 am

  8. Fran -

    Jasmine remind yourself that your hope is strong and let all the love and good wishes you receive here strengthen it further. Lots of love and thoughts to you…

      10.28.08 - 9:23 am

  9. Natarsha N. Wright -

    You & Your family will be in my prayers! *HUGS & KISSES* May your mom have a speedy recovery.

      10.28.08 - 9:47 am

  10. Mindy -

    Prayers to your mom, you and your family…

      10.28.08 - 9:50 am

  11. Konfral -

    Fingers crossed Jasmine!

      10.28.08 - 9:53 am

  12. kay drenth -

    Just wanted to let you know I’ll be praying! {{{hugs}}}

      10.28.08 - 10:07 am

  13. Katrina James -

    positive energy being sent your way

      10.28.08 - 10:27 am

  14. Gina S. -

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mother. (((sending you good vibes)))

      10.28.08 - 10:29 am

  15. Amy Neeson -

    Thinking of you & your family…

      10.28.08 - 10:47 am

  16. Bertie -

    I’ll be thinking of your mom today, Jasmine. Many hugs to her, you and your family.

      10.28.08 - 11:32 am

  17. jessica @ budgetsavvybride -

    prayers and love and hope for you, your mom, and your family.

      10.28.08 - 11:36 am

  18. Alisha -

    lots of prayers (warm and fuzzy ones) headed your way!

      10.28.08 - 11:53 am

  19. Amanda Reed -

    many prayers

      10.28.08 - 12:08 pm

  20. Camille Elise -

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Stay faithful.

      10.28.08 - 12:10 pm

  21. Melissa -

    Thinking of you and your mother!

      10.28.08 - 12:46 pm

  22. Bernadette -

    I’ll be thinking and praying for you and your family today. Hugs!

      10.28.08 - 12:59 pm

  23. Jessica Lynn -

    thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, Jasmine. You are such a talented photographer who has touched the lives of so many through your work. You have so many friends/followers that are keeping your Mom in their thoughts today….she is a lucky lady.

      10.28.08 - 1:00 pm

  24. Julie L. -

    Many many prayers to your mom and your family Jasmine. God Bless!

      10.28.08 - 1:09 pm

  25. Tira J & David -

    So many prayers on their way for sweet Millie. Our God is a faithful and a hopeful God and he will take care of your Mom every step of the way. We love you and your entire family Jasmine.

      10.28.08 - 1:14 pm

  26. Michelle Jones -

    Hugs to both you and your mum, I hope she is fine, in fact I’m sure she’ll be fine, she’s young, fit and has you for a daughter. She’ll be fine 🙂

      10.28.08 - 1:20 pm

  27. Stephanie -

    My prayers are with you!

      10.28.08 - 1:28 pm

  28. Oakstream Photography -

    Oh Jasmine I wish you all the best of luck. I will say a prayer for you & your mom. God bless!!!

      10.28.08 - 1:34 pm

  29. tish -

    May His peace guard your heart and mind today

      10.28.08 - 1:37 pm

  30. ksen :) -

    my thoughts, heart & prayers are with you, your Mom & family. i, too, have hope & faith that everything is going to be okay. 🙂

      10.28.08 - 1:50 pm

  31. Jim -

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom and the rest of your family.

    "Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the LORD. "
    Psalm 31:24

      10.28.08 - 1:50 pm

  32. Erin -

    Good luck. We are rooting for your mom to be okay.

      10.28.08 - 1:58 pm

  33. Susan Solo -

    I definitely have your family in my thoughts today and am hoping for the best news! Sending love all the way from the east coast!

      10.28.08 - 1:59 pm

  34. Yuka photo art -

    I thinking about your mother….everything will be good!!!

      10.28.08 - 2:12 pm

  35. Joyce -

    We’ll be praying for your and your family. God is faithful and He will do the miracle!!

      10.28.08 - 2:16 pm

  36. Rich and Alyssa -

    We’re thinking about you guys!!! Best wishes…

      10.28.08 - 2:17 pm

  37. Mark Chambers -

    Our prayers are with you and we hope that it will all be good news. God Bless.

      10.28.08 - 2:23 pm

  38. KTBee -

    Good luck today! You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. 🙂 I hope the upcoming days and weeks bring you what you are looking for in an answer. Much peace to you and your family.

      10.28.08 - 2:25 pm

  39. Dawn -

    Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. God bless…

      10.28.08 - 2:30 pm

  40. Lindsay Kipp Photography -

    Good luck with your mom, I truly believe everything will work out like it’s supposed to, and she will be fine. Keep up your beautiful spirit and know we all love you and are praying for your family!

      10.28.08 - 2:32 pm

  41. Kyle -

    Best of luck, Jasmine’s mom! Sending lots of "fuerzas," to the whole family from Chile!!!

      10.28.08 - 2:32 pm

  42. Leah Charbonneau -

    Thoughts and prayers with you today! Don’t let go of the hope. It’s hard to hold on to but it does wonders. Positive vibes to your family today!

      10.28.08 - 2:37 pm

  43. Jo-Anne Kyle -

    Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family today and always.

      10.28.08 - 2:41 pm

  44. Joan Solitario -

    It is during times when we are weak that we realize that we are strong. God bless and I hope everything goes well for you and your family!

      10.28.08 - 2:45 pm

  45. Heather Perdue -

    Weber and I will keep you and your family in our prayers. God bless!

      10.28.08 - 3:03 pm

  46. Nelly Chung -

    I will keep your mom in my prayers. Have a good day.

      10.28.08 - 3:06 pm

  47. Paula Herko -

    Jasmine and Family: I am praying for your mom today. I am praying for the whole family to have peace and for the doctor’s to have steady hands and minds as they operate on your mom. God is good… and faithful!

      10.28.08 - 3:14 pm

  48. Regina White -

    Jas praying for you and family. **HUGS**

      10.28.08 - 3:17 pm

  49. nancye -

    still praying…

      10.28.08 - 3:21 pm

  50. Ginette -

    Usually a blog "lurker"for your blog…..but I had to comment today to tell you that I am praying for your mom and your family. God is good. You seem amazingly strong. Your mom is so lucky to have a daughter like you.

      10.28.08 - 3:35 pm

  51. Ariana W. -

    I will keep your Mom in Prayer and I just pray peace, love, joy and healing over her in this difficult time!!! And I come into agreement that she will overcome this!!
    God Bless
    Ariana W

      10.28.08 - 3:45 pm

  52. Roxie -

    Stay strong Jasmine*! Your thoughts are in my prayers and I hope for nothing but the best for you and your beautiful family. God Bless!

      10.28.08 - 3:45 pm

  53. Feuza -

    There is a powerful verse in the Bible about hope, it states that an old trunk of a tree though cut, dry seems there is no life in it, but at the smell of waters, there is hope for it to live again. I will keep you in my prayers.

      10.28.08 - 3:49 pm

  54. Anne Nunn Photography -

    You have a wonderful perspective. As a mommie who lost her identical twin boys at birth, I know it is hard to keep that perspective, but the first step is confessing it and laying all your cares on Jesus…for he cares for us. I will pray for you today.

      10.28.08 - 3:51 pm

  55. Emily Mason -

    It’s so wonderful that you have faith=) I will be praying for your family today.

      10.28.08 - 3:56 pm

  56. Rylee Sundquist -

    May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. (Romans 15:13) Claim it! Even in the shadows of despair, or the bright lights of an operating room, you and your mother can overflow with joy, peace and hope.

      10.28.08 - 4:04 pm

  57. joshua k -

    Dear Jasmine, I will be praying for you,your mon & family too,God is listening now. Stay strong !Hugs!

      10.28.08 - 4:09 pm

  58. Shannon McFarland -

    Hey Jasmine,
    You & your family will continue to be in my thoughts & prayers. I hope everything goes good today. Much Love, Many Blessings, & TONS of laughs!!! 😉 Shannon

      10.28.08 - 4:15 pm

  59. angel swanson -

    i’m praying for your mom & your family today. lean on God’s perfect will; He is in control. 😉 i love you! xoxo

      10.28.08 - 4:20 pm

  60. Fishgirl -

    Thinking and praying for your mom and for you, I pray to God he’ll give you peace inyour heart!!GBY..

      10.28.08 - 4:25 pm

  61. Catie R -

    Thoughts and prayers for your mom, you and your family. Hugs.

      10.28.08 - 4:33 pm

  62. Yvonne L -

    Our prayers are with your family and I’ll send a little extra hoe your way just in case.

      10.28.08 - 4:35 pm

  63. Rene Skrodzki -

    My thoughts and prayers also go out to you. Your faith is important, use it to guide you through.

      10.28.08 - 4:43 pm

  64. Alicia -

    Many, many prayers are with you and your family today Jas. Keep the faith. xoxo

      10.28.08 - 4:51 pm

  65. Ashley -

    I too believe everything will be okay. Our prayers will be with you today.

      10.28.08 - 4:59 pm

  66. jen berry -

    thinking of your family and you.

      10.28.08 - 5:06 pm

  67. Adrienne -

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mother. With high hopes and your positive outlook, everything will turn out fine! 🙂

      10.28.08 - 5:07 pm

  68. scott -

    You and your family are in my thoughts.
    You’re such a good person!

      10.28.08 - 5:07 pm

  69. Melissa -

    My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family sweetheart!

      10.28.08 - 5:16 pm

  70. Linda -

    Jasmine, I too will be praying for you throughout the day. Trust in the Lord with all your heart…

      10.28.08 - 5:20 pm

  71. joyful weddings and events -

    praying for you girl!

      10.28.08 - 5:28 pm

  72. Lucy -

    Your mom and family are in my prayers today.

      10.28.08 - 5:35 pm

  73. Alan Nielsen -

    My thoughts and prayers are with you too…

      10.28.08 - 5:46 pm

  74. Ashley -

    My thoughts are with you Jasmine! Everything will turn out okay in the end.

      10.28.08 - 5:55 pm

  75. JJ -

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family 🙂

      10.28.08 - 6:19 pm

  76. carrie -

    sending you many, many hugs. much love -c.

      10.28.08 - 6:20 pm

  77. Ashley Rose -

    Hi Jasmine,
    Crazy Market Lady here… 🙂 I am praying extra hard today for you family. Jasmine you radiate warm and goodness and I know god is watching over your family today!

      10.28.08 - 6:24 pm

  78. jeramy -

    praying for your mom.

      10.28.08 - 6:32 pm

  79. Amber Paterson -

    We’ll be praying for you guys

      10.28.08 - 7:06 pm

  80. Vanessabrooke.net -

    I’m praying for you and your family. My aunt is battling stage 4 cancer right now – and I know that love and supposrt is the best energy you can give someone. It helps.

      10.28.08 - 7:22 pm

  81. Ali -

    Hello. I am a big fan of your work and have been checking your blog for a while now. I love photography. When I read your most recent post, I had to write and let you know that I will be praying for you and your family! I am sure you are a wonderful, warm, and loving influence on everyone around you. May peace be with you and God Bless!

      10.28.08 - 7:43 pm

  82. Penny Noell -

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your Mom.

      10.28.08 - 7:45 pm

  83. Charise -

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and you family Jasmine! May today bring you nothing but good news.

      10.28.08 - 8:26 pm

  84. Cheryl Cronin -

    Hey Jasmine, I’m sending you all sorts of positive, hopeful, loving, and supportive energy!

      10.28.08 - 8:30 pm

  85. Kristin -

    Best wishes and many prayers your way.

      10.28.08 - 9:00 pm

  86. Larry Reeves -

    Hope everything goes well!

      10.28.08 - 9:09 pm

  87. Ginger Murray -

    Warm and fuzzies are necessary to pass on when life can be such a pill sometimes!

      10.28.08 - 9:16 pm

  88. Jamie Borden -

    Love, prayers, and positive vibes from Jared and I to you and yours!

      10.28.08 - 9:18 pm

  89. Jackie L. -

    My thoughts are with you as well! Stay hopeful!

      10.28.08 - 9:18 pm

  90. Amanda Key -

    Your mom will be in my thoughts and prayers.

      10.28.08 - 9:26 pm

  91. Liza -

    I will definitely be praying for the best! I know how that it is…to wait. The best thing right now is to truly be hopeful and to be filled with faith that God will provide to your best interest at hand. God Bless!

      10.28.08 - 9:29 pm

  92. Stephanie Elkins/Pazzulla -

    My prayers are with you and your family.

      10.28.08 - 9:42 pm

  93. Sarah-Jane -

    Hey Jasmine. You and Your family are in my prayers! Just remember how great and powerful OUR God is! Isaiah 40:28-29.

      10.28.08 - 10:03 pm

  94. Trista -

    I’ll be hoping and praying for the best!

      10.28.08 - 10:16 pm

  95. brooke bowland -

    my thoughts are with you today. stay strong!

      10.28.08 - 10:33 pm

  96. nikki mcleod -

    hugs……

    from scotland

      10.28.08 - 10:33 pm

  97. Michelle -

    I will be praying for you and your family. Keeping you in my thoughts.

      10.28.08 - 10:53 pm

  98. Mike Paterson -

    My wife and I have been, and will continue to be praying for your mom, you, and the rest of your family.

      10.28.08 - 10:56 pm

  99. tracy smith -

    Saying a prayer for your family…

      10.28.08 - 11:08 pm

  100. Karin Dailey -

    We all love you, Jasmine! And your family!

      10.28.08 - 11:18 pm

  101. kimberly jane -

    sending so much healing loving energy to your mom, you and your family!

      10.28.08 - 11:31 pm

  102. Trina Knudsen -

    Jasmine – I pray that you and your family will be blessed with peace and comfort during this time of unknowns.

    I work as a nurse at Huntsman Cancer Hospital in SLC, UT. No matter the outcome, your mother is blessed tremendously because of your love and support for her.

      10.28.08 - 11:37 pm

  103. Abra -

    My thoughts are with you. I hope all turns out for the best. If not, remember that God will not give you anything that you can’t handle. You are strong and can make it through anything. The hardest thing is the waiting.

      10.28.08 - 11:39 pm

  104. Kathrina -

    I hope for the best for you and your family. You’ll all be in my prayers and thoughts. Stay strong and know that there are so very many people who are in your corner. Blessings.

      10.28.08 - 11:49 pm

  105. Araxi -

    Lots of prayers for you and your family.

      10.29.08 - 12:28 am

  106. Lissy -

    I just got on my knees and said a prayer in Spanish (since it’s my 1st language)- I just know you mom is going to be all right. Hang in there J*

      10.29.08 - 12:30 am

  107. todd scott ballje -

    hey jasmine
    i can very much relate as my dad has fought cancer for the last 15 years. you are so right to continue to depend on God and your family and friends. There is no thought or way that will ever replace the core values of our lives.
    And as you Im sure already hear and know, you will never regret missing a few moments of work, but may regret missing a few moments with your family. Cherish it!

    best wishes to your mom!

    / todd

      10.29.08 - 12:58 am

  108. lauren -

    prayers to you & your family, jasmine.
    *

      10.29.08 - 1:47 am

  109. Candice and Daniel -

    Praying all went well for your mom today…

      10.29.08 - 1:50 am

  110. Sissel -

    This all rests with God. You just give it to him and everyone will continue to pray. That is the very best place you can be.

      10.29.08 - 2:17 am

  111. Michelle Henrick -

    Thinking of you..Prayers to your mom and your entire family <3

      10.29.08 - 2:17 am

  112. Shelley Forsberg -

    My thoughts are with you and your family.

      10.29.08 - 2:23 am

  113. b -

    lots of love and hope your way…

      10.29.08 - 2:23 am

  114. daria bishop -

    oxo from vermont!

      10.29.08 - 2:29 am

  115. Melody Carpenter -

    Praying for you and your family right now…

      10.29.08 - 2:34 am

  116. Alejandra -

    Add me to the group of people who is praying for your family.

      10.29.08 - 3:13 am

  117. Holli True -

    Hoping & praying for the best, Jasmine!

      10.29.08 - 3:47 am

  118. Michelle -

    I am hopeful too … hang in there, Jasmine!

      10.29.08 - 4:03 am

  119. Jessica -

    Prayers for good results! We just went through the exact same process with my mom and breast cancer, and I pray you get the same great results we did!

      10.29.08 - 4:12 am

  120. Abayomi -

    For he promise to not leave you nor 4sake you, he will keep his promise

      10.29.08 - 4:15 am

  121. marlene -

    God is in control 🙂 I know he will take care of your mom and your family!

      10.29.08 - 5:47 am

  122. Lydia -

    Praying for you all!

      10.29.08 - 6:43 am

  123. Val McCormick Photography -

    Jasmine, I pray that the Lord give you and your family strength to get through these tormentous waiting hours, that he guide the surgeons hands during the surgery but most of all that the Lord lay his healing hands on you mother. In Jesus Name…Amen

    ~Hugs~
    Val

      10.29.08 - 7:37 am

  124. rowena -

    I’ll be praying.

      10.29.08 - 8:04 am

  125. terri Z -

    many thoughts and prayers for you and your family …

      10.29.08 - 9:36 am

  126. Carl Reid [uh-tacht] -

    Stay strong…I’ll pray.

      10.29.08 - 10:03 am

  127. Jenn Regruth -

    Hang in there. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

      10.29.08 - 10:38 am

  128. Whitney Gray -

    I’m praying for healing, strength and peace!

      10.29.08 - 1:17 pm

  129. Kelly | Purple Lemon Designs -

    My thoughts and prayers are with you, J*, and your family. God is with your mother always.

      10.29.08 - 1:28 pm

  130. AprilW -

    I will be praying for your family today.

      10.29.08 - 2:19 pm

  131. Cyn ~ -

    We are praying and believing in the God of Abraham, Issac & Jacob

      10.29.08 - 2:27 pm

  132. Rachel -

    I am thinking of you and your family today. I don’t know you personally although I know how I would feel if it were my mom. All the best.

      10.29.08 - 3:46 pm

  133. ashley b -

    still praying……….

      10.29.08 - 4:00 pm

  134. K. Holly -

    Sending prayers for your mom, as well as you and your family today. Hang in there, you’re strong and so is she!

      10.29.08 - 4:03 pm

  135. Joan Solitario -

    Regarding your "EDITED TO ADD" – That’s wonderful news! I hope for fast recovery for her and hope for the best for you and your family.

      10.29.08 - 4:33 pm

  136. Korey -

    Oh Jasmine…I will pray. I wish I had something better to tell you, but times like these can’t be explained away.

      10.29.08 - 4:35 pm

  137. Heather/OneShotBeyond -

    Been thinking of you since I first read this. It’s good that you’re hopeful. Take deep breaths when you need to and other than that all you can do is keep faith.

      10.29.08 - 5:39 pm

  138. Melanie -

    Hi Jasmine,
    I will say a prayer that everything goes well and that you all get good news on Monday.

      10.29.08 - 8:52 pm

  139. ohana photograpers -

    praying for your mom and your family jasmine.

      10.29.08 - 9:01 pm

  140. nicole green -

    i’m a little late on this but i just wanted to let you know you and your family has been in my thoughts! so glad to hear your mom is in good spirits!

      10.30.08 - 12:16 am

  141. Naomi -

    Hi Jasmine, Id just like to say that your blog is fantastic, Ive gone through the past few months {is that stalking}and you can really get an idea of what your made of. Bless you and your family. Good luck.

      10.30.08 - 1:48 am

  142. Jackie Jones -

    I hope this helps a little… "She believed she could so she did". This powerful saying is framed on a table in my office. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom. I’m a blog follower from Tn.

      10.30.08 - 3:19 am

  143. SamTheMan -

    Hi Jasmine,

    Keep us posted and know that we’re praying for you. Here’s a big ole’ virtual hug from Chicago.

      10.30.08 - 3:33 am

  144. Lauren -

    Good luck Jasmine*, i’ll be thinking of you and your mum. xx

      10.30.08 - 5:46 am

  145. Apple -

    Just stay strong Jasmine! and don’t lose faith! *lots of hugs and prayers!:)

      10.30.08 - 7:02 am

  146. Cathy Crawley -

    Thinking of you and your family 🙂 xxx

      10.30.08 - 12:10 pm

  147. tracy anne -

    my grandmother-in-law was just diagnosed with throat cancer last night. at 80 some years old there’s not a lot they can do for her… and then i thought about your mom and i prayed for your family to get good news on monday.

      10.30.08 - 4:57 pm

  148. jasmine's mom -

    I am forever thankful to all of you who have covered me with prayer. I am feeling very well at this moment. This coming Monday the doctors will let me know the results. I wish I can hug and kiss every single one of you. When I hug Jasmine I’ll imagine I’m hugging all of you. Love you all!!!!

      10.30.08 - 7:45 pm

  149. cassandra m -

    Jasmine’s Mom…Many prayers are still with you. Many "good" thoughts are coming your way for you and your family. much love to you!

      10.31.08 - 1:30 am

  150. Cicilia -

    Your mom is in my prayer. I wish you and family all the best.

      10.31.08 - 3:27 am

  151. Lisa Love O'Connor -

    Jasmine – My heartfelt prayers are with your Mom and your family.

      10.31.08 - 5:48 pm

  152. Lawrence @ Furious Photographers -

    I hope all goes well 🙂 Be strong!

      10.31.08 - 9:04 pm

  153. julia and jason -

    we’re praying for your mom and your family.

      11.1.08 - 4:01 pm

  154. Samantha -

    Hello Jasmine,
    You don’t know me but I’m a photographer from New York and I follow your blog and website because its just so darn beautiful. I wanted to express to you that I just went through a similar experience when my mother found out she had oral cancer and they had to remove a section of her tongue. She has had breast cancer twice before, but this was much more invasive. I traveled downstate 6 hours to be with her for two weeks while she was in the hospital and recouping. I just wanted to let you know that even though I was worried and scared for her, the surgery went well and she’s back being her spunky self.
    I just thought that an inspirational story of a similar nature might help when those sleepless moments come about.

      11.3.08 - 5:55 am

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