JD and I are in the process of moving, so this past weekend–on a rare weekend off–we spent our time packing our belongings. While beach sirens beckoned from the coast, we toiled at home in order to make the big move later this week. As I was cleaning my office, I came across the first piece of marketing material I bought for my business. Well, actually, I sort of made it, but still.

When I made this album to showcase my work, I felt like I was growing. Uncertain of how, exactly, but at least I was growing. I felt like a business owner with this album…

I went to Aaron Brothers art supply store and bought a book with empty pages, corner stickers, printed my favorite pictures, then set out to create a photo album. I slipped my business card in the front peephole. And, yes, that was my first-ever logo, all scripty and italicized. So legit, right? 😉

Here's one of the first spreads of the album. Apparently, I thought shooting entire engagement sessions with a fisheye lens was cool. (Sidenote: it's not.)

At this time in my career, I also let my clients wear sunglasses at engagement sessions. I have no idea why (I think I was too scared to suggest otherwise), so I just kept quiet. (Sidenote: never be afraid to speak your mind when it comes to starting a business.)

Ten years ago, I was discovering who I was as a creative entrepreneur. I look back at these photos and feel my awkwardness and noviceness ooze off the pages. I was trying to learn my craft, develop editing skills, and understand my camera, but I was too afraid to enjoy the process. I wish I could go back and tell the me in 2005 that it's okay to let my guard down and trust things will be okay. (Sidenote: starting a new business or creative venture is always awkward and difficult, so remember you're not alone…we've all been there!)

Skimming through the pages of this photo album reminded me that humble beginnings are the best. The struggle defines your process, and the dedication sharpens your skill. So often we hide behind perceived failures, but the failures lead to success if you're willing to keep pushing forward.

It's better to try flying, then simply stand on the ledge questioning the fall.

Start simple, start somewhere.